The other night I was putting my daughter Lucy to bed, and I said “Goodnight my sweet baby”, she replied “No, Daddy! I’m a big girl!” I pushed her with “but you’ll always be my baby girl, right?” “No, I’m gonna get bigger and bigger” “Why?”, I said. “Because I got to!” It was a perfect reply, I sobbed uncontrollably as I scratched her back into a blissful sleep, then continued my tears in a louder fashion in a room where I wouldn’t disturb her.
Ever since she came into my life there’s been a gaping vulnerability unlike anything I’ve ever experienced. She truly holds my heart in her hands. Every photo, every memory, every word she says leaves a very welcomed mark on my soul. I wrote this song for her, when I started to think about how some children and their parents start out so close, but end up so far apart. That will never happen to us, she will always be my best friend.
1 year ago, I lost my mother to lung cancer. It has been one of the toughest year yet. This is a visual diary of the past year. Everything that I wished my mom got to see. All of these images can be found on my Instagram.
Dedicated to Mom and thank you to everyone who has lent a helping hand and has said a kind word.